So I'm still Sick

Its been like two mionths and I've seen like a billion different doctors. The excruciating pain returned yesterday at 6th period. And i srtarted crying, because i hate acting like a girl in front of people ( whicjh is weird because I'm so girly) So i walk to &th period crying my eyes out and the the teacher and a room full of guys are just like staring at me. So i excuse myself to the bathroom as everyone else starts walking in. And some track girls help me clean up and give me some water while i walk back to class. So other than the pain, I'm having saline iscahrge from my mouth and nose from that neti pot thingy, which makes it hard to breathe. So i start hyperventaliting. Again super embarrassing. I go back to class but discharge is till coming out so i have to stand outside the door leaned over a trash can with a handful of tissues. Then i go back into class just to get the whole box full. I finsh crying and calm my breathing down. I sit back down in class. And one scond leter I yell ooooow because  i experiance a sharp jab of pain. " Okay you need to go to the nurse" someone says and a friend of mine helps me walk there. At the nurses i call my  mom who has to pick up my two other sisters first. So by the time she comes, school is over anyway. The nurse can't do anything but watch me twist in pain. I come home, eat, ( which is amazing, i can alays count on my apetite) , and sleep. My mom gives me eardrops because I think the pain is in my ear. I wake up to try to do some homework. but scream out in more pain. So my dad takes me to the emergency and they tell me the pain is not in my ear, it just feels like it. they prescribe me 4 pills of decongestant a day and some additional pain killers and a nasal spray because they think it has to do with my sinus.

I don't go to school today and at 3:30 i have an appointment with a neck and throat specialist, because one of my previous MRI's revealed i have a slightly lareger than average tonsil at the back of my throat. This tonsil is supposed to disspapper by my late teens. But to make sure This is affecting me, i see this doctor. So she sparays the inside of my nose to numb it. then sticks this camera in a rod down my nose to the back of my throat. She tells me the sinus has nothing to do with my pain. There is a different, unknown cause. So To make sure the tonsil is not affecting it., they'll monitor my sleep nad if it is I'll have surgery. And If it isn't... I don't know from there