It so HOT!!!!!

its like over 100 degrees ( farenhiet) thats like 38 dregrees celcius. Anyways I've been super busy with theatre and school. Pre-calculus has been really hard for me this year, so i got a tutor. I had SAT prep test today. SAT is like a college admission test. We are having an Eid party at my house today so I also have to clean :p

My Eid

So thursday after school and after rehersals, I came ditch my school bag, took a shower and got started on my nails. I wasn't fasting that day so I decided to pamper and feed myself at the same time. My mom refuses to spend money on us for a salon so we do things ourselves. It took my quite awhile than usual to get my nails done perfectly. Then I did my hair and scribbled on some hennah. I have no talent for it, my sister does, but i was impatient I did it myself. We had guests from North cali who were going to spend eid with us come over. The next morning, I got up got dressed. I wore this red anarkoli, I'll get pics of it later. and my makeup and [ut fianl adjustments to my hair. We went to the Mosque in Ontario and it was super fun with all our friends and stuff. Then we went to this house where we've gone first at Eid day since we were like born. I have friends there so it was fun. And OMG fooodddd. yummm. then we went to this other house. It was fun too, but my parents needed to go someplace so they kinda ditched us at the second house and would came back for it later. I think my sisterss and I sort of overstayed our welcame.... I went to a third house and met up with friends there too. We came back around 4 pm. which is a big dissapointment, but the family that stayed with us was making their tri back up north. After awhile i grabbed a bunch of food and locked myself in my room watching tv. we had a few guests taht too. It was a really super fun eid.

The next day i attempted to do some homework. And later at night, we got all dressed up again and went o my friends house, where she graciously gifted us with purses and products. ( some of my favorite things :] ). from there we went to another party. and came back at one pm at night. super fun eid so far :)

OMG ALMOST EID!

as a friend of mine put it on facebook... its that time of year again.....hennah...new clothes...and lotsssss of fooddd!

oh and i got the lead in the play this year!!!!!

Oh God, Please Help

I seem to blog more whenever things are going wrong instead of right. So here is today's bad situation. give advice if you can help me, this is really personal and I really enjoy the anonomity.

So my 6 year litle sister went into a room without saying salam and my dad gets furious. he threatens to beat her so my little sister rushes to my middle sisters room to hide, my middle sister tells me quick hide your stuff, turn off the computer and hide! I do that and hide in her room but I forget to turn off the lights do I go back to my room but he's  already upstairs. so I try to talk him down and telling him there are other ways of teaching other than hitting so he gets his metal pole, i scream and run into my room. for normal people this would be the end of it but after being emo its hard not fall for the tendencies, i had these sick twisted desires to staple my hand and pierce my skin with binder pins, it took all I had not to. i can't live like this anymore, i', always seconds away calling the police but then we wud be in financial ruin.....

First week of school

So I just finished my first week of school. Only 35 more to go lol. WOW it was really tiring. It's been really hot here in California and with fasting I was getting really dehydrated. So here are the classes I'm taking this year:
Eng honors
AP Gov/Econ
Spanish 3
Intermediate Theatre
Chemistry
PE
Pre-calculus/ Trig

Pre-calaculus has been the hardest class for me. I've stayed up til one in the morning trying to finish the homeowrk. I should be doing homework now too. Someone told me to kiss your social life good-bye when we entered sophomore year. Well, I guess I should be. This year doesn't seem as good as last year. A lot of my friends are drifting away. It seems... hollow....

Just a random question...

does anyone know if your fast breaks if you throw up???

Ramadan and other random shizz

 So I havn't exactly been feeling well, since I came back, a mild stomach flu. Ramadan Mubarak to my Muslim readers. I'll continue travel posts later. I can't fast if you guys know what I mean,.which gives me time to recover. By the way do you have to fast if you've got a severe, fever, cold, cough or something like. Fasting for me has only been fard for a very short time noe, because of my age. I never really had gotten sick during ramadan. Granted a few colds. Nothing I couldn't bear. Just wondering.
So regristration for sophomore year was today. I got to see all my friends, get my books, take the school pictures blah blah. All while wearing a Dolce & Gabana headscarve I picked up at Dubai. They had a lot of designer scarves for less, so I picked up a few ( A LOT).
At the moment I have an obsessioon with childhood movies. Especially disney princess movies. I have no idea why. I miss my old home, from like 3 years back, because it was small and cozy. Not that I don't LOVe this new house. But it seems so big. I don't know I'm just wishing that it would be like winter and it would snow and there would be like a fireplace. My old home had that feeling. You guys are going to laugh at me but my old home was demolished and remodeled into this current one. No change in location or wheather. It just felt more cozier. I suddenly miss my childhood fir some reason too. It feels like everything is material and big and so uggg. I need simple-ness in my life and I have no idea how to achive it. So I got my eid clothes in Bangladesh and a pair of matching heels. I decided to give up wearing heels over 3 inches for awhile. I think it might come off as trashy gocven my age. Last year for eid i wore this pair of 4 1/2 inch heels that were AH-DOR-ABLE I'm not exactly that short compared with other Bengalis, so someone ( grrr0 asked my mom your daughter is so tall how are you going to find her a husband as tall as her. For the record I"m like 5' 3" and 1/2. People here for some reason are really short. Most don't even make it to 5'.